Bluuuurrrr.

Well Midterms are coming up for me. Time to hit the papers, books and whatever else there is to read. Just hope I'll be able to remember everything I study. Well if all else fails. Typing or writing everything that you're studying from the book helps me remember things. Or acronyms those help to when you need to remember multiple points on a topic and such. Because I'm in Music Theater  I have performance midterms as well as written, which means practice and study. YAAAAAYY. Well that's all I have for today. Byeeee

Relationships and Friends

Okay this is more of a ranting post than my point of view in college. One thing, especially about relationships in college, they'll ALWAYS get complicated no matter what circumstance. In my case, a good majority of my friends think I should break up with mine because to them, he's no good. How? Yes we have our squabbles from time to time and yes we have different opinions and such. But it doesn't mean we can't get along, yes he tries to control me sometimes but that's only when he worries about me, unfortunately he's the type of guy that worries a lot. I know most people find it annoying and some people find it being too clingy. But honestly, if  what he's telling me not to do is stupid like, he doesn't like that I party, that's his problem, not mine, end of story. He knows he can't force me in anyway to do something nor does he every try to and yes, a lot of the things he say can be out of context, but that's him.  He has made stupid mistakes, I'll admit that, but I don't let myself hate him because of it, I mean a lot of the things he has made mistakes of only has happened once and end of story, never did it again. Plus there's the fact that, I'm his first girlfriend and he's the best guy I've dated so far. Then they come with the response "Oh Darling, He probably is still doing this shit and not telling you". Honestly, if I didn't trust him, why would I be with him? I know I'm not there to see myself, but honestly. Try having to live with him being long distance since the beginning our relationship, we saw each other once a month. The only difference we have now is, we're 4 more hours away than we used to be, we only talk once and week because WE'RE BOTH BUSY WITH SCHOOL, and we only see each other during the holidays now. Is it any different, not really! He didn't do anything then and he won't now. I don't get how you guys see him as a douche bag, but I guess that's because, you never actually met him. I stuck around him for 2 YEARS. Yes I will bitch about him every so often but that's because of disagreements, which become resolved the next day. Plus he wanted to take a break during college, yes it hurt me but at the same time he was right, it would be good for us to see other people but still talk, I was hurt then, yes I know but consider this situation, he's never been with another girl before me and almost every guy before me cheated on me or dumped me, I understand that we have horrible times trying to find someone else, but at the same time it's not good to just stay with someone because you feel they're the only person that will care for you, he felt maybe we're just settling for each other because of this reason, and honestly, even though I didn't want to admit it, he was right, because me and him are VERY polar opposite and half the time we have nothing to talk about because we don't have a lot in common, I agreed to it because yea this could be a time to explore. He had good intentions. We ended up canceling that Idea 2 months later because we couldn't do it. Also, No.......He's not like what a perfect boyfriend should be, but what boyfriend is perfect in the first place?! He's a good guy, he treats me with respect, doesn't abuse me or tell me things that are self esteem lowering, listens when I talk and bothers to ask and listen about my week, he isn't controlling(and will never be even if he tried, he caves too easily), and cares as much about me as my best friend, who seems to be the only one who thinks he's a good guy, but that's because he actually met my boyfriend. Seriously, I'm tired of them judging him, they never even met him in person, only a skype call where he was being sarcastic. PLUS the alcoholic thing, he was joking when he told me I'm becoming one, because I told him that when Igot very worried when he blacked out drunk 3 times during different months in the first semester of college and basically gave him a whole speech about it, but wasted because his parents gave him the same speech and was already working on it xD. Now he has making fun of me rights for it....I don't blame him nor do I mind it. Which brings me to the next thing that bothers me, HE HASN'T DRANK ANYTHING ALCOHOLIC SINCE 1ST SEMESTER, yet they keep insisting that oh he's doing it behind your back and such. You don't know and I don't know but I don't think he would do that, considering he's the one trying to get me to open up to him more -_-. Then there's the fact that he was raised to be more old fashioned, I don't fricken mind that! Because that's how he's raised, I've already accepted the way he is, yet they don't seem to agree with him acting on those instincts, honestly, that's just him. They need to accept it or  back off. Seriously

Thank God It's Friday....Nope

For most college and university students, Friday means the weekend to go party and do all the stuff they want. But for others in certain programs, for example my program in Music Theatre, have to go to school on Saturdays for extra rehearsals. Or in my boyfriend's case, studying wild life, he has to go to school on Saturdays to study animal and plant specimen at the school because he will be tested on new ones every week. Though I think no matter what program you are in during university or college, you won't have time to do much because of homework and such. I'm only in first year so this is what I'm seeing anyways. But yea regardless of how busy you are you do need to find time to relax, it may not be a lot of time but little time is better than nothing. Honestly the best thing you can do is just tough it out and concentrate, that's hard for me because I have ADHD but I don't use it as an excuse. xD

Okay Lets Do This Intro Thing

Welcome all, I don't expect you to take this all seriously but for me this is a journal for my everyday life in school, I don't really mind if you have different opinions than what I write on here, just please don't make a fuss over it, because most of the posts you will see here are of my opinion and my everyday experiences. If you are in you first year of college, I'm in the same boat as you. But I hope this will help with anyone going to college or university in the next year or so...Well I have class in 20 minutes...Byeee